Believe you me, I get this question nearly every time that I come out to someone about being trans, and my response is always the same, "I don't hate being a girl, but I don't like being stuck in the wrong body," I know that some people are kind of confused when it comes to this concept, but it makes perfect sense to me. In perfect honesty, I wish that I was a girl in a girl's body, life would be so much less complicated, however, as I can't change my brain to fit inside of my body, I have to do it the other way. Sure, I'm a little intimidated with the whole idea of SRS *Sex reassignment surgery* but I'm very willing to go with the alternatives; these alternatives being a double masectomy, and a full hysterectomy, along with going on testosterone, as long as I get these things done, then I'm pretty sure that I'll be happy.
Speaking of me being happy, everyone is constantly asking me if I'm sure about going through with this. I don't know why they think I'm hesitating, or perhaps they hope that I am. Transition is all that I've ever wanted, and while there's a possibility that I'll regret it, I know that if I don't go through with this, I'll regret it even more. I don't want to go through life wondering if I made the right choice or not. The only choice that I have to make is whether or not to try and fix the way that I feel inside my own body.
My father still calls all of this an 'experiment,' It's how he copes with the idea of his little 'girl' wanting to have a dick.
Anyway...yeah, tomorrow I go to my doctor...nurse actually, to get the results of my bloodwork. I'm pretty much on pins and needles right now, and I'm super-wired up, hoping that I get my first taste of T *Testosterone* tomorrow. Wish me luck!
On a less serious note, let's talk about cosplay for a bit, yes? YES! Now, if you're wondering what cosplay is; Cosplay comes from the words 'costume' and 'play,' In a nutshell, it is the amazing expensive passtime of dressing up like various ficticious characters - usually anime characters, or video game characters. Traditional cosplayers only cosplay as Japanese characters, but American cosplay is becoming increasingly popular as well.
Ahem, so there you have it folks, I'm a total nerd and I love it. I've been cosplaying officially since I was sixteen, and my first cosplay was Light Yagami from Death Note. I've also cosplayed as Bakura Ryou from Yu-Gi-Oh! and Zack Fair from Final Fantasy VII Crisis Core. While I cosplay, I attend conventions, the main convention that I attend is Anime Banzai, but I've also gone to Anime Oasis as well. I'm currently working on two cosplays for October; A steampunk version of Sora from Kingdom Hearts II, and N Harmonia from Pokemon Black / White. I will be updating you on these as I complete them, and will be adding pictures once I purchase a new camera.
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