N Cosplays, for your viewing enjoyment!

My Favorite N Cosplays!

So these are just sort of reference pictures I suppose. This is N from Pokemon Black / White, the king of all pokemon! Hurk...I love him and his green hair. So as you all can see, he is super uber sexy. Unfortunately, only two screenshots of him actually exist T___T Which makes for a very sad Dar. But, fortunately, his outfit is pretty damned simple. Two shirts, one hat, one giant green wig, one pair of khaki pants, awful green shoes, and accessories. Oh fuck yes, I love his terrible accessories. In other words, N is just one big boat of sex, says I.

I will be cosplaying him in October of this year, I'm adding the finishing touches to the bangles on his left hand, and I'm making his necklace and Menzer's sponge *the rubix cube* right now. They're coming along swimmingly, if I do say so myself. Which I do.

If my cosplay turns out as good as any of these, I will be completely satisfied.

Ahem, anyway, now that I've bombarded you guys with glorious N fanservice, let's talk about Banzai, yes? Yes! So, Anime Banzai is from October 21st to October 23rd this year, hurray! In our brand new venue for the second year in a row. I've attended Banzai every year since it began in 2005, and I was just 15 years old. Huzzah. I plan on spending two nights at the hotel, and staying with two of my close friends. Lulabel and Wolfy. Yes, this is totally what I call them on a daily basis, though Lulabel also gets called Lulu, Lulubug, Lubulu, Luloos, and Luly, and...about a million other names. I find great joy in calling her all of these silly things because she happens to be my supervisor xD Seriously, who else who has a boss who will go to an anime convention with them. Hah! None of you! or...very few of you, I dunno ._.; Wolfy is a girl who I met through my illustration class, she got the nickname because her last name happens to be Wolf. How fitting, yes? Indeed.

Lulabel and I plan on selling stuff in the AA, the Artist Alley. I'm super excited because I've never done this before! She will be selling jewelry in both Steampunk and Asian inspired designs, while I will be selling little clay figurines from popular series such as Final Fantasy, Kingdom Hearts, Pokemon, Ouran High School Host Club, Full Metal Alchemist, Naruto, and more! Wish us luck!


...Is it bad that all of the best male cosplayers seem to be girls? .__.;

Just keep swimming, just keep swimming...

 Just keep swimming, swimming, swimming...
          What do we do? We swim, swim, swim....

And cue the fanservice!

Sexy Pikachu is in high demand, oh yes!
...I wish I had a sexy Pikachu girlfriend =___=;

*Gloom*



So...why do you hate being a girl so much?

Believe you me, I get this question nearly every time that I come out to someone about being trans, and my response is always the same, "I don't hate being a girl, but I don't like being stuck in the wrong body," I know that some people are kind of confused when it comes to this concept, but it makes perfect sense to me. In perfect honesty, I wish that I was a girl in a girl's body, life would be so much less complicated, however, as I can't change my brain to fit inside of my body, I have to do it the other way. Sure, I'm a little intimidated with the whole idea of SRS *Sex reassignment surgery* but I'm very willing to go with the alternatives; these alternatives being a double masectomy, and a full hysterectomy, along with going on testosterone, as long as I get these things done, then I'm pretty sure that I'll be happy.

Speaking of me being happy, everyone is constantly asking me if I'm sure about going through with this. I don't know why they think I'm hesitating, or perhaps they hope that I am. Transition is all that I've ever wanted, and while there's a possibility that I'll regret it, I know that if I don't go through with this, I'll regret it even more. I don't want to go through life wondering if I made the right choice or not. The only choice that I have to make is whether or not to try and fix the way that I feel inside my own body.

My father still calls all of this an 'experiment,' It's how he copes with the idea of his little 'girl' wanting to have a dick.

Anyway...yeah, tomorrow I go to my doctor...nurse actually, to get the results of my bloodwork. I'm pretty much on pins and needles right now, and I'm super-wired up, hoping that I get my first taste of T *Testosterone* tomorrow. Wish me luck!

On a less serious note, let's talk about cosplay for a bit, yes? YES! Now, if you're wondering what cosplay is; Cosplay comes from the words 'costume' and 'play,' In a nutshell, it is the amazing expensive passtime of dressing up like various ficticious characters - usually anime characters, or video game characters. Traditional cosplayers only cosplay as Japanese characters, but American cosplay is becoming increasingly popular as well.

Ahem, so there you have it folks, I'm a total nerd and I love it. I've been cosplaying officially since I was sixteen, and my first cosplay was Light Yagami from Death Note. I've also cosplayed as Bakura Ryou from Yu-Gi-Oh! and Zack Fair from Final Fantasy VII Crisis Core. While I cosplay, I attend conventions, the main convention that I attend is Anime Banzai, but I've also gone to Anime Oasis as well. I'm currently working on two cosplays for October; A steampunk version of Sora from Kingdom Hearts II, and N Harmonia from Pokemon Black / White. I will be updating you on these as I complete them, and will be adding pictures once I purchase a new camera.

Salutations and hello, fellow netizens!

So, hello, hello everybody.

This is me being unable to load an icon onto this site because my mother's computer bites like crazy...and in the totally sucky and not good way. Oh yes, as you'll find out, I'm definitely a bit of a camera-whore, but it's fun, so nyeah. Alas, my camera is broken, so you'll be frequently treated to year old pictures until I manage to buy a new camera. Hurray >w<

I guess that this is a good time for a proper introduction, yes? In that case, let's get to it, shall we? My name is Darius Aiden, not legally, but it will be one day. One day soon. There is no way that I'm putting my legal name up here, but trust me, it's very odd, and is one of those names that I don't even need a last name. It's like...Cher, or Prince, or Kesha...or something like that. Yeah, cus I'm awesome. Ahem. More about me, I'm twenty one years old and I came into this girl as a cute little girl, only to realize at the age of twenty that I just so happen to be a boy. Hence, the title, Boy born with a V, Aka, Boy born with a Vag. Hurk. I enjoy being blunt, can you tell?

So yeah, about all that being a boy in a girl's body. It's true. I'm an FtM, otherwise known as a Female to Male. I'm currently on my way down the path of a legal sex-change. I've been seeing a gender therapist for four months. I was officially diagnosed with Gender Identity Disorder in February of 2011. I'm currently in the process of getting a perscription for Testosterone and went into a nurse's office for bloodwork about a week ago.

Speaking of testosterone, I'm going back to see my doctor again on May 6th. I'm not quite sure what's going to happen this time. I think that I'll be getting my bloodwork results, and I'm hoping that I'll be able to get my perscription. I don't know if I get my first shot this Friday, but I'm really hoping. Sure, I'm a little nervous about going on T, but I'm also super psyched. Believe it or not, most of my family knows about my transition. I'm told my parents, my step-parents, my two older sisters, my step-nephew, and even my boss. Phew, I couldn't believe that my boss was totally okay with it. I've also told a large chunk of my friends. However, not everyone is okay with calling me by my chosen name or using the right pro-nouns, but I'll just have to deal with that.

Unfortunately, I've got work soon, so until next time, this is me signing off!